Someone Called My Name

Someone called my name this morning
Audible and clear
It woke me from the deepest sleep
My heart beat fast with fear

“Yes?” I spoke into the dark
It sounded like my dad
“Hello?” I called out louder still
No reply was to be had

My heart took on a slower pace
I lay my head back down
And I felt you there, in that place
The silence seemed to drown

Its been so long
Since You called my name
I hardly recognized Your stillness
And in my shame I realize
I’ve ignored Your constant nearness

My health, my life, every little joy
I’ve taken and I’ve ran
Rarely stopping to say thank-you
Just holding on to what I can

I know I’ve grown and changed
Since those days I was nineteen
Became who I wanted to be
Stood up against a life obscene

But still I’ve not turned back to You
Nor thanked You for Your patience
Just skipped along into my twenties
Building healthy new relations

I’m sorry I’ve neglected You
And not of Christian guilt I’ll say
It was so nice to hear Your voice
This cold December day

You were my friend for many years
The most constant, the most true
And in my selfish party days
I was not the same to You.

So judge me, call me crazy
But my allegiance needs afirmation
My rebellious nature is hard to ignore
But I owe You my salvation.

T
© 2010